oh my ==a

suddenly I feel so hyper when I post my older post... just wanna say sorry for a friend in my older post.. she might not like that, sorry for everything.. hehe 


I don't know what I feel right now.. 3 days for freedom.. and I must study hard for it.. 
beside that I feel something strange inside me.. I don't know what.. but everything I open this blog.. and listen the song in here... I feel so sick... thx to yiruma for the song..


I just wondering why.. but guess what.. I've already forgotten all my feeling.. haha maybe I'm right, I've ever said that I cant love somebody bigger than 70-75% maybe... but of course I love my family... especially my dog, Jasper :) 
And I have a big question here.. my friend sometimes ask me "what kind of a boy do you like?"  That's my questions too.. and I still don't know the answer.. maybe when I enter the university life.. I will get the answer... AMIN :)

If You Stay

I was standing on the other side
watching you leave and I,
couldn’t see you go

Know that I was so sincere
when I said I need you here
cause this is your home

You’re the one my everything
If you stay you’ll make me sing

I’ll give you my life
I’ll give you my heart
and nothing will ever come between us,
ever come between us tonight
I’ll show you the way,Just promise me that you’ll

Promise me that you’ll stay

And I know that our bond’s so true
You are to me as I am to you
And I know that we can sustain
even though we ain’t together
our love still remains

from Joseph Vincent – If You Stay

it's a love

it's all about love, I just wondering how love can make people crazy.

Be in love is great, but what if you can't get love

even just for once...and I feel like a dummy one who always wait until I die without do anything...

beside there's always a chance for me, to make it come true, but I always miss it....

cause I don't know how to speak

my heart. my brain. my mouth. they're not suitable.. only my heart can speak easily...

and this is how it ends...

7 days from now, there is the national test

and when it's over.. 

I will lose you forever

fool me 

shout out

There is something that made me angry from yesterday,
there was a girl.. I think she kind and nice,,, before..
but now.. I think she's turn 180 degrees.. 
cause she disturb my personal life.
I know she like my friend from the past.. 
I think she dislike me because of it.
"Woiiii I don't care.." just wanna to shout out that haha


but still my heart say


"believe it or not, I'm not afraid of you
believe it or not, you're not the one who can beat me
believe it or not, I'll be bigger than before
cause this is my world, my movie and
in this movie 
I was the main actress, my heart was the director
and you were the evil... who disturb my live


So go away,,, evil !!!"


and for my friend in the past... I just wanna say
I don't know it's gonna be like this.
sorry if I made you upset before, but that's not because I don't like you or what..
I like you but just for a friend
I just don't want to hurt you in the end.. I've sure it for real.. 
because I'm not the right person I think..
cause you know that I already told you before I have several friends that I didn't accept it too.
same reason like that....
don't be pessimistic
and if you though that there's something stupid happen in the past.. I already forget it.. I hope you can forget it too..so we can enjoy our life better and let's just be a friend from now :)

10 minutes note

i've been lost
i seek for the way out for a long time
when the night come
i see the star...shine brightly, it looks so lonely
but that star make my way out clearly visible..
very grateful with the star I offer my heart to the star so the star won't be alone

a little things come through with this message..

from Putri with smile :)

Search an Angel

Everybody knows that everybody search his/her angel for his/her life.

Everybody knows that the angel isn’t easy to find.

Everybody knows that she/he must search the best angel for her/his life.

And I think this has already existed from a long time ago…

A Dino has searched his angel too J

When I gone mad

There’s something that I can’t tell anybody. 

Because that’s a big secret.

And I don’t really know it too.

Because I can’t prove it

So could you leave me alone?

Sorry

SEVENTEEN

Seventeen is a number after sixteen

And a number before eighteen

What’s so special  ? Why people called it SWEETSEVENTEEN?

Maybe it just as sweet as I am hahaha :p

I’m seventeen now.. Wish the best for me